I seem to have a short fuse lately. I snap at everything and everyone (except my students). I snap at dh, my friends, my sisters, I have been a complete bear -grrrr. They say in order to overcome something, one must first acknowledg it. Okay - I have been a total ****h lately and I can't seem to stop. I am blaming it on AF. There-I acknowledged it, not on to dealing with it. Lord help me to hold my tongue.
Today is CD 24. 1st milestone has gone, and 3 more left to go. I have been cramping on and off for the past few days.....so it is only a matter of time.
My step-kids are coming tomorrow and I have mixed emotions. Don't get me wrong - I love them, but the last time they were here, we lost Alyssa-Joy and I am just not ready for the reminder. Dh will be driving the 3 1/2 hours to get them and I will not be going. I hope I can get through the memories.
We have a busy day planned. They are going to visit with their aunts, uncles, and grandparents, then eat dinner (at home), and then go to Boomers (a mini adventure theme park). The thought of the cost is giving me a hernia, especially since I have to shell out money on our taxes and a ticket dh got being stupid. It is more difficult earning more..... and knowing this, I worry about everything. I don't like working in the summer, but at the rate things are going, I just might have to.
Oh girly, we all get this fiestiness in us...I read somewhere yesterday "what is the difference between a grizly bear and a woman with PMS? A grizly bear you can reason with...
ReplyDeleteI know any reminders of when we lost our babies is difficult, but we have to force ourselves to continue on with life. I tell myself that Lily would still want me to be productive and keep moving, and I'm sure Allysa-Joy would want the same for you.
Hey, maybe its not PMS though, who knows?
Sorry you're having such a rough time. I hope that things go smoothly with your step-children, and that your spring break allows you time to unwind emotionally and physically. :)
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