Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Oh Where Oh Where is Spring Break????

Here I am sitting in an all day leadership meeting and my mind is elsewhere. I should be brainstorming and sharing ideas and concerns, but all I can think about is Spring Break and getting preggers. I find myself analyzing every feeling, twitch, and ache..... wondering......if......I.....could.......be.....pregnant. I keep running to the restroom checking the toilet paper. I keep thinking that I am seeing blood (its not there, but I cant help it). Every time I don't see blood, I breathe a sigh of relief. Today is CD 21. I have no idea how long my cycle is. If it is 24 - all hopes are shot, if it is 26 - there is a glimmer of hope, if it is 28 - then we really have a fighting chance. I have a few milestones. Thursday, then Sunday, then wednesday. I really do not know when I ovulated. I used OPK's the last 2 weeks and could not pinpoint a day until I got fed up and stopped. I hope and pray that I am. If I am not, again, it is ok. After all, we are supposed to be taking a break.

I absolutely cannot wait for spring break.  April 6th cannot get here fast enough. I can really say that my students are driving me insane. They, like myself are simply counting the days until Spring Break.

Every Spring, I compile my plans for the summer. This summer I plan on learning to crochet, hit the gym and lose some weight and laze around the house. I cannot wait!

I also miss my baby today. Knowing me, I would have already have everything prepared. I would be anticipating her birth and enjoying it. If I were still pregnant, next week would be my last week. As I approach this day, the reality of my due date draws even closer. I am dreading it. How will I feel? Will I be depressed? Will I be able to handle it? Should I even bother coming to work?
Please pray for us as we approach this now dreaded date.

Awaiting my expected end.


  1. Thinking of you...

    Hope your spring break arrives quickly and that you are blessed with good news soon! :)

  2. I know the feeling of examining every twitch, ache, and cramp as well!! Praying for you!!! Hope your spring break arrives very quickly! =)