Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Appointment Update

How precious are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee. - Psalm 139

Can I just say I love my blog family??? I was always wary about "putting my business out there" and meeting people on the net. When a friend told me years ago that she was trying online dating, my response to her was; "ARE YOU CRAZY!!!! Do you know how many psychos troll the net?". Who would have thought that I would have met so many who would be my biggest supporters over the net? Women (maybe men too?) who probably know more than my husband and family. Women who know my most intimate thoughts. The net can be a wonderful place!
Thank you so much for the comments. I read them repeatedly and shed some tears. It is great to know that I am not alone and others share the same feelings. THANK YOU ALL.

Every appointment for me is nerve wracking. I literally lay on the tiny bed (why are they so tiny anyway?) shivering in fear. I kept repeating the scripture "for God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind" over and over again while clenching my hands behind my head.
My poor husband sits there shaking his head and rubbing my arms because he knows I am panicking deep inside. I am soo grateful that I have a Dr. who is willing to see me whenever I need reassurance. Cervix is STILL stable measuring over 3.5 cm. It is still long, curved and closed with no funneling in sight! Praise God! Baby had its legs crossed and weighs a whopping 9 oz! Unofficially (since it was an unofficial u/s - off the record) everything looks great, lips, heart, brain, spine, fingers, toes, the whole works. So far we have a healthy baby and we are happy!
I left the appointment emotional because I am in awe that God continues to show us he is in control of every situation. I am still working, completing my Ph.D at nights, am still upright and so on. I am so thankful and I'm starting to believe that I am bringing this baby home come April/May.

Thank you so much for the good thoughts, prayers, and well wishes. They are very much appreciated.

Awaiting my expected end (great c/l and still working!),
Marie

11 comments:

  1. YEAAAAAAA! That's what we wanted to hear! And I've heard the same thing about having blog/internet friends, but I've learned to just ignore them and I'm so grateful for everyone too!!!

    Continuing to believe that your rainbow baby is coming home with you in the late spring!! (I vote for April, as I think April babies are best b/c I am one)

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  2. YAY!!!!! I am so happy!!! Still praying for you and baby. :)

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  4. yes yes yes! it sounds so good. Keep going, it will happen.

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  5. Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful news!!! Been praying for you and this little pumpkin! I just know...this one will come home!

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  6. I am so glad your appt went well. and thinking that you will but we KNOW that you will bring this one home! It would be even greater if he/she came on my birthday (may 2cnd) lol. if that's not too soon ;o) love ya!

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  7. I'm glad for the good appt! You def are not alone in the emotions you are feeling. I was in your shoes not too long ago and it was quite a ride!! Praying for you!

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  8. Woot woot! SO glad things are going well! I'm another rooting for an April baby! :)

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  9. keeping you in prayers, so happy everything looks good!

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  10. YES!!!!!!!! Great news....keeping you uplifted in prayers always.

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  11. Great news, Marie!!!!! The TAC is doing it's job! Looking forward to MANY more good updates!

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