Thursday, September 17, 2009

I Can Only imagine

:-(. This is how I feel today. At times, the burdens of life overtake me and I can only focus on the negative. As Friday looms, I relive the circumstances surrounding the loss of Evan. Every Friday morning I will the day away praying that time speeds up.

If we only had hope in this life, it would be a sad existence. I am reminded daily that there is something greater in store for me. One day I will go to a place where I will know no heartache and I can hold my babies once again. I will see my Mom and just bask in the Glory of God. Just thinking about that day makes me smile and urges me to live a life that is pleasing to Him.

As I was wasting the time away, I found this clip on Youtube that lifted my spirits. I hope it does the same for you. Whatever your troubles are this afternoon, just know that weeping only lasts for a night, but EVERLASTING JOY will come in the morning.
As for me, I am drying my tears and thanking God that he chose me to be Alyssa-Joy's and Evan's mom. Without them, would not have known empathy, compassion, agape and unabashed love.

Where is my expected end?


  1. This is a beautiful song and as much as I don't want to die, if my day came, I am more accepting of it now because I believe both of my babies, Jonathan and my other little one, are waiting for me in heaven.

  2. What a lovely video! (And I've always been a fan of the makes me try to imagine the wonder of the singer/author, I too "can only imagine.")

  3. Hi Marie,
    First of all, I wanted to let you know that my heart goes out to u and ur husband for the loss of precious Evan and Alyssa, they are absolutely beautiful. I have continued to follow ur blog and I continue to be amazed and inspired by ur strength and faith. On my bad days, which is most days, I refer to ur blog and I know I'm not alone. It's been 6 months now since I lost my daughter Shia at 22 weeks. Just like the song 'I can only imagine' Mercy Me, I too have a song from Mercy Me that completely expresses how I feel about my daughter, I'm sure u have already heard it, it is called "Homesick". The story behind the inspiration for that song, one of the band members had a friend who delivered and lost her twins at 5 months. Anyway, I wanted to drop u a note and let u know that u are in my thoughts and prayers.
    - Cecilia