Monday, August 3, 2009


After waiting all night for the cytotec to take effect, it finally did its job. I felt a lot of pressure despite the epidural and paged the nurse. I asked her to please check me and to our surprise the head was right there. The doctor was called in the room and after 3 pushes, Evan George W. came out butt first still in the amniotic sack. Thankfully the placenta came out as well so no D&C was necessary. I wanted to see everything the nurse was doing to my baby. She cleaned him up and brought him to me. It was the most calming feeling. This was the one thing I did not do with Alyssa-Joy and I was determined to hold Evan. Hubby did not hold him but stroked his skin.

Evan was born perfect. Not a bruise in sight. He was the most beautiful baby boy and had a peaceful look on his face. I knew immediately that he was resting in the arms of God.
Though my heart hurts, I know he is in a better place and I cannot wait to see him and his sister again.
Mommy and daddy love you Evan, and would give up this world for you and your sister.

Evan George W.
Saturday July 25th, 2009
13 ounces, 10 inches long.

Where is my expected end?


  1. What a beautiful little boy...he does look so perfect and peaceful. That is one loved little guy.

  2. He is beautiful and you are right, he is with our Almighty God resting peacefully in heaven.

  3. What a beautiful baby! A gorgeous face and what precious hands. I'm so glad you got to hold him and love on him a little. I didn't want to even see Ella, but I'm so glad that the nurses pushed me to. I'm so sorry, Marie.

  4. He is simply beautiful and you're right, he looks so peaceful.

    Sending you love and prayers~

  5. So perfectly made and now with his creator! I am so very very sorry for your loss!!! He is so very beautiful! May you feel God's presence as He guides you through this journey...
    (Another angel mama)

  6. Marie--

    He is a gorgeous baby. I love his perfect little fingers and hand. I was so in awe when I saw Jonathan's little hands as well--I have a picture of them in a locket I wear every day. It amazes me how God creates something so incredibly small and perfect. I'm praying for you dear friend. I know that God has your expected end planned--and it is going to be amazing! Love you!

  7. Hi Marie. I have quietly been reading and I'm just so so sorry. My heart feels very heavy for you. Evan is gorgeous, thank you for sharing his picture with us. Much love and peace to you and your husband.

  8. He is the most beautiful baby. I am sitting here with tears in my eyes, breathless, and in awe of him. Thank you for sharing him with us. I am so honored.

    And how I wish he were here with you now. ((Hugs))

  9. Thinking of you girl. I wanted to let you know I moved to