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Today is my 26th birthday. I never thought in my 26 years on this earth that I would know so much loss, pain, heartache. Despite these hard emotions, I never thought I would know so much love. Love from children, family, and strangers (though we are no longer strangers :-0).

I was adamant that I would not be celebrating my birthday this year because of all the emotions that accompany this day. Last year, I spent part of my birthday in the hospital and the other half at home. I was so distraught and worried that I did not want anyone to visit or call. To put it bluntly, my birthday last year sucked.

Well my husband was determined to make up for last year and stated (more like demanded) quite passionately that we would be celebrating my birthday. Now, I am glad I did. Celebrating this day helped me to take my focus off the emotional day that is right around the corner. It reminded me that I should enjoy the happiness before the wave of sadness hits.

The day started off with a wonderful gift from Larry and a breakfast party from a few of my co-workers. I went to work ou

t and then just got back in from having dinner with my husband. Overall I can say the day was good and I want to chronicle it before "new" grief comes out in the coming days.

Thanks for your wonderful comments and for all your support during his difficult time.

07/22/2010 - 10 lbs lighter and much wiser.

Awaiting my expected end.