Tuesday, March 2, 2010

This Must Be It

I remember when I lost Alyssa-Joy, I said to the Lord," please let this loss not be in vain. Let this experience be a witness of your goodness, grace and love, to someone else who might be going through the same thing. Let me lead by example and show others that you are still good in spite of......"

I recently checked my yah.oo email after weeks of not checking it (I only use it for junk). Imagine my surprise when a stranger (NoBloPoMo) sent me an e-mail asking me to call her. In the subject loss she put "regarding scam". Curious, I called her and to my amazement had the most amazing yet poignant conversation. To spare you the specifics, she found my post via Abby.loopers and wanted to let me know she had the same experience that I had with Dr. Char.les. She let me know that she was on her way to pay her deposit, when an inkling urged her to check Abby.loopers. To her surprise she saw my post, and had the same doubts about Bar.babra that I did.

She wanted to thank me personally, for sharing my experience, because she felt that Bar.bara was dishonest, but went by what others told her about him.
The conversation lasted an hour and we were able to express our grief freely and share how we handle the various aspects of grief.
Who would have thought that my "rant" would be able to help someone? All I can say is that the Lord works in mysterious ways. He allowed one thing to happen, so that someone else can avoid falling into the hands of these people. I can only imagine how many others may see that e-mail and choose a trustworthy Dr.

I met another "stranger" in the most unlikely places - face.book! I have several friends that I met through Abby.looper and we have connected through this social network. One of these friends has a close friend that she met through her local church assembly. This friend (I hope you can keep up), was telling her and others (via face.book) about a blog she reads that is inspiring to her (which is amazing to me, because I don't feel inspiring. I am simply just sharing how I feel about the things I encounter. I am so honored you feel that way Stephanie!).
My friend K., said to her I know that blog! That's Marie! I am always willing to meet readers and connect with them personally, as I have connected with many of you (Emily, Bree, Jessica), and am eager to learn more about her and how we can be a blessing to each other.

So in the past 2 weeks, I have met two strangers that I am sure will have an even bigger impact on my experiences. I think that if I had not lost my precious babies, I would not have met these women, or any of you, and I value the friendships that we have.
This community is awesome and helps to keep me sane. We are no more strangers, but bonded together through our experiences.

Ephesians 2:19
Now therefore ye are no more strangers and foreigners, but fellow citizens with the saints, and of the household of God;
Hebrews 13:2
Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.

So this must be it. This allows my losses to be more bearable. Being able to be a blessing to others, and having others be a blessing unto me. Being able to know a wonderful group of mothers that care freely, love freely, support freely, and share freely. I am glad I met all of you.

FYI - If anyone else wants to connect via face.book, feel free to email me. At this point, my life is an open book :-).

Awaiting my expected end.


  1. You are definitely a blessing to other!! I am always in awe of the way God uses "strangers" to make a difference in my life. Awesome.

  2. Awesome post, Marie. We are definitely united in grief

  3. Marie, isn't it amazing how God intertwines our lives with others?

    God bless you and I would love to connect on FB!

  4. Oh Marie, I am truly blessed by your blog and I never dreamed I would get to know you through a church friend. God places people in our lives for a reason. One of the things I prayed about after losing my Mason was that God would help me give his life meaning. He was so precious to me that I knew he was made for something special even if he was only here for a few short hours. I know that God gives mothers like us the strength to help others, and by that we do honor to our dear Angels. I pray for you to His peace, and for the strength to continue reaching for your expected end.

  5. Yes God does work in mysterious way:0) And your blog is most definately an inspiration to me. Sending you hugs.

  6. Hi Marie,
    I know God led me to your blog. You eloquently put into words the deep emotions that are entailed with the loss of a child. I truly care for you and your babies, you are all in my heart. If it wasn't for you, I would have never known about October 15th, I shared your post for that day with my closest friends and family members, and they were in tears, because you expressed the feelings I hold deep inside when I myself could never find the words. When I feel hopeless I think of you and what you have been through, and the strength/faith/love that you have through all your struggles, it brings me comfort to know that such a beautiful soul is out there and it inspires me.
    Love Always,
    Cecilia (mother of Shia, born at 22 weeks, a moment in my belly but a lifetime in my heart)

  7. I completely agree with you! Even through the hardest times of my life, I feel richer and more blessed because of the connections I have made through blogging/facebook/Abbyloopers/etc. Connections that never would have been made in my 'previous' life! You are a blessing Marie and inspirational to all who know you! I'm thankful to have you as a friend!

  8. It is amazing how it all works sometimes. Wonderful post!

  9. Marie, this is a great post. Sorry for the late comments. I am so thankful that if I am on this journey that I am not alone. *Hugs*

  10. I'm so glad that you are helping others!!