Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Renewed Hope


How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand; when I awake, I am still with thee. (Psalm 139).

I am humbled, grateful, emotional, happy, delirious, nervous, in disbelief, over the moon... you name it, I'm feeling it. I am 24 weeks (actually 24 weeks, 2 days)! There is a plethora of emotions running through my head and heart. I am excited to be here and this pregnancy is becoming more real to me. During this moment of happiness, there is sadness as well. Sadness because I never got to experience this milestone with Alyssa-Joy or Evan. I am rejoicing, but the "if onlys" are lingering in the back of my mind.

I had my 24 week appointment yesterday and as usual, I was a nervous wreck! I did not leave my bed (thank heavens for holidays!) and spent the day researching. I wont say what, but I probably should stay away from the Internet.
At 3:00pm, we were sitting in the waiting room with our hearts in our hands anxious about what the appointment would reveal since it had been 4 weeks since our last cervical check.

These are the highlights from the appointment:
Weight - 188 (4lbs up from pre-pregnancy weight)
Blood pressure - 125/69
Baby's heart rate: 143bpm
Baby's weight: 1lb 7 oz (yikes!)
Cervical length measurement: 4.10cm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (last check was 4.03)
Precautions: Keep doing what I am doing, but relax just a little because we deserve it after all we have been through. The outcomes at this stage with this c/l is awesome compared to when we were at 20 weeks during the last pregnancy (dr's exact words).
Next appointment: Feb 15th, 2011

And for the moment we have all been waiting for...................................................................................
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Introducing our Gift from God:
Spencer Nathan W.

We have a renewed hope. The TAC is working and we are grateful we made the decision to have it done. I keep thinking "what if we had followed the consultant's recommendation and done another TVC?" Would we still be at this stage? Would I still be able to work? Would my cervix still be long and closed? We will never know, but we are thankful that the Lord led us to Dr. Rodriguez and we are excited to be living testimonies to his goodness!

We are telling our families today and tomorrow and are prepared to encounter some hurt feelings. We do no expect the news to be taken with happiness and sunshine, but I hope they understand why we chose to keep it quiet for so long. Wish us luck!

I cannot thank you enough, but THANK YOU for all the well wishes, thoughts, texts, and so on. And please, do not post on face.book until we tell our families.

Awaiting my expected end,
Marie


19 comments:

  1. A BOY!!!!! I love, love, love his name! I will be praying as you tell your families! Hopefully they will understand! Congrats mama! xoxo

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  2. <3 Spencer SO MUCH!!!! and im so happy for you!!! this is amazing!! xoxoxo

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  3. Yay for a boy and I love the name Spencer!

    I'll be praying for you as you tell your family and friends...hopefully, they will understand!

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  4. (doing my happy dance!)

    Lord, thank YOU!

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  5. Congratulations!!! And how beautiful... Spencer Nathan... The name "Nathan" has significance to me, "gift from God" as that was Alexander's first name. :) Beautiful choices. I hope your family takes the news well, as it is such a blessing!

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  6. Marie,

    I'm sitting here in a puddle of tears, as I am overjoyed with happiness for you. The cervical measurement is amazing! And the announcement of gender makes me smile. Not to mention, his name is beautiful :) He will grow up to be like his Mama, faithful and strong and yes, he is truly a gift from GOD.

    Be well sweet friend
    xxx

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  7. All of your babies have such beautiful names. I have chills reading this. So happy for you, Marie. xo

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  8. It's a boy!!! How exciting......glad that everything is going so well!!!!!!!

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  9. Oh Marie! I am so happy for you!!!!

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  10. Hi Spencer!!!!! 1 lb 7oz is GREAT, go Spence!! (I gotta love the name, I've got a cousin named Spencer :)

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  11. I'm crying tears of joy for you, Marie!! I know the feelings you're feeling right now--ecstasy for being this far, hesitant thinking of what is still to come, and bittersweet memories and wishes for your babies alive in heaven. I'm praying for the last weeks of your pregnancy...to be without issue, to be full of appointments with long cervix reports, and for you to have such wonderful joy preparing to have your sweet Spencer join your lives--healthy and full of life! Congratulations, my friend!!

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  12. Oh, I am sooooo happy things are going well! You will be holding Spencer soon and he will be happy and healthy!! Thinking and praying for you and our family!!

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  13. Well Hello Spencer! I am glad that everything is going well. I am smilling for you. Know that i am continueing to cheer you on. Thinking of you and sending you lots and lots of Hugs!

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  14. this gives me such great hope Marie. Bless you and little Spencer.

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  15. What amazing news!!! I am just so happy for you guys!

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  16. I have been wanting to know what you are having!! A boy--yea!!!! Congrats, on the boy and on reaching this milestone in your pregnancy! I'm so happy for you and feel relief for you! I'm praying your families react well, and are excited for this sweet baby blessing, Mr. Spencer!!!! Love it!!

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  17. Awww, it made me misty-eyed reading your news.

    Yay for Baby Spencer! SO glad things are going well and you're at the sharing-with-family point in your pregnancy.

    Hugs!

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  18. Marie, HE is beautiful! I'm so happy for you & hubby! Can I be an honorary aunt??? Many, many congratulations on this baby boy & I love his name!

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  19. Exciting! I'm so happy for you. Blessing in sharing with family and friends! I'm sure it will be special. ;)

    ~Jess
    http://bringingyoumorethanasong.blogspot.com/

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