Heart Broken

A few months ago I told you all about a young lady and her husband who were "encouraging" my husband. These same individuals and her father (my pastor) told me to "get over it", and told my husband to remove every baby picture out of our home.

On Saturday, they gave birth to a beautiful baby girl Lon.dyn Kenn.edy Ar.chat, born at 22 weeks gestation. Lon.dyn lived for 3 hours and blessed her mommy and daddy with her presence before returning to our Savior.

When I first heard the news, I was still a little bitter and could not open up my heart. After hearing her husband speak at church this morning retelling the birth of their daughter, the ice melted and I started crying. I cried for her and her husband, I cried because i know the next few weeks/months won' be easy. I cried because another mother had to give birth way too early. I cried for Lon.dyn and the fact that she will never walk this road with us.

Larry and I stopped by their house after church this afternoon to bring some flowers and convey our condolences. As I walked through the door, the first thing out of her mouth was, "Marie, you are a soldier". I told her I did not think so, I just did what I had to do to survive and stay sane. I was able to share with her some things that the Dr.'s did not tell her that may happen in the next few days (milk coming in, phantom kicks).

One question she asked me was do I think having another baby will make it all better. I immediately said no, you will always remember your firstborn. I let her know she can call me anytime, no matter what time of day, and that I will be there for her.

She felt showing the pictures would be morbid, but I encouraged her to "show them off" and even showed her the ones I canny in my pocket book of my babies.

Please pray for them as we all know firsthand the pain that they are going through and will experience in the coming weeks/months. My heart aches for them both.

Awaiting my expected end.