Mothers day was a day I looked forward to last year. In times past, I had never celebrated it, as I had no mother to celebrate it with. My dad would take us girls out to dinner and we would have an awesome time. This year was going to be different (or so I thought). Not only would we celebrate it, but I would be a MOM!
Now, I am dreading it. It did not help that the usher at the door at church ask me if I took my picture yet. You see every mothers day at our church, the ladies and their children get a free portrait session. I said to him, "who am I gonna take a picture with? A memory box?" This sure shut him up.
Every time I now see the Publix commercial coming, I run in the opposite direction, aka changing the channel. I seem to be very emotional these days. I cry at the drop of a hat, and at the mention of mothers day, the floodgates open. Is anyone else dreading this day? Any plans or ideas to make this day easier for me?
For those of you who still have your mothers, cherish them. Tell them and show them how much you love them. Don't use this day to dwell on the fact that your baby is in heaven or not yet here, but show your mother how much she means to you. As for me, the day will be one filled with sorrow and pain, but I am going to take my own advice and show my dad how much I love and appreciate him. I am going to get up, light a candle in AJ's honor (after all I am a mom), and visit my dad. I will not be attending church, as the festivities just consume me with sadness.
I wish everyone a great week.
Awaiting an expected end.