Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Introducing......

It is understood that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of any storm. When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that we are not still dealing with its aftermath. It means that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover, but the rainbow provides a counter balance of color, energy, and HOPE. (unknown)



Introducing our rainbow;


Spencer Nathan W.
04/26/2011
8:06am
7 lbs, 2oz
19 1/2 inches long.

We are filled with joy and we have a permanent smile on our faces. Our EXPECTED END is here and he is happy, healthy, and alive. Like the dr. said in his report, "active baby with a lusty cry!"

Enjoying our expected end,
Marie & Larry

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Back and lots of updates!

Hello gang!

I have missed you all. A big thank you to all those who checked up on me. Both my MacBook and Desktop went out for repairs and what should have taken two days turned into 2 weeks! Its amazing how much we rely on technology. ha! I spent the last 4 hours yesterday catching up on blogs.

Spencer is still baking away, but we are two days away from meeting him. I feel excited, overwhelmed, scared to death, you name it, I feel it! I especially feel sad knowing that I never got to experience these feelings with Alyssa-Joy and Evan. The closer I get to meeting Spencer, the more the sadness comes because AJ and Evan are not here. The other night I looked at my husband who was just up staring at their urns. We just hugged each other and cried and he said to me, "Marie, I wish we knew then what we know now."

My last day of work was last Thursday and I have the option of being out until October 6th. I am so thankful that I get to spend the next few months with my little man even if it is unpaid.

Now, where did I leave off? At the last appointment with the MFM, Spencer weighed 5 pounds, 6 ounces. He had gained one whole pound over the course of two weeks so we are guessing that he might be a little over 7 pounds now. I am starting to get uncomfortable. I feel lots of pressure, aches and pains, my belly has a mind of its own and it is extremely hard to get up at night. I 17P shots worked like a charm because a week after the last one, holy cannoli! There came the Braxton Hicks! I can just imagine if I had not been taking them the entire pregnancy how I would feel.

We are all ready for Spencer's arrival. The crib is set up, the car seat installed, his closet and chest of drawers ready, our bags are packed and we are just counting down the hours until Tuesday morning.

This was our last appointment with our MFM. Ignore the puffy eyes, I was quite emotional during our last ultrasound and visit with him. We are thankful for an amazing doctor.


A few friends from work threw me a shower (not my team). Spencer is one blessed little boy!



We did out maternity photoshoot yesterday and here is just a sneak peek. As soon as I get the others, I will share them with you.





Here is my 37 week belly shot. Larry had already left for school and I had to make do. 37 weeks was the ultimate milestone that I wanted to reach and when I reached it, I was a wreck! Poor hubby thought something was wrong when he heard me crying (and it was the ugly cry).


Today I am 38 weeks exactly. On this day that we celebrate our risen Savior, I cannot help but thank him for his ultimate sacrifice of giving us his son, and for the children that he has blessed me with, especially the one in my womb. We serve an amazing God!


How many weeks: 38 weeks - Praise God!

How am I feeling: Excited, nervous, terrified!

Doctor’s Appointment: Last appointment with the OB was last Wednesday.

Weight Gain: Finally hit the 10 pound mark!

Maternity Clothes: All maternity

Baby Preparation: Done!

Gender: Boy!!! Spencer Nathan W.

Sleep: All the time. I find myself taking naps throughout the day and still sleep 8 hours a night.

Best moment this week: Getting our maternity photos done.

Movement: He is moving less, but still seeing "waves" across my stomach as he moves. If I haven't felt him move, I find myself poking him until he does.

Food cravings: Stewed Peas and Rice.

What I miss: Walking without waddling!

What I am looking forward to: Meeting Spencer on Tuesday!

Milestones: Getting to full term.

I have a lot on my heart so I will probably be posting quite a bit.

Thank you so much for walking this journey with me. I cannot wait to share Spencer with you all

Awaiting my expected end,
Marie

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Quick Update

Hey gang!
Sorry it is taking me so long to update. My computer is out for repairs and I feel so lost. Currently blogging from my blackberry, but will update as soon as I get my laptop back, which should be sometime Thursday or Friday.

Talk to you soon!

Awaiting my expected end,
Marie

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

34 Weeks!





My new best friend. Yea.... silly me thought I would have gotten away with no stretch marks. No such luck. I literally woke up Saturday morning and wowza! There they were. Now I am diligent with applying this paste. Hopefully its not too late.


How many weeks: 34 weeks - Praise God!

How am I feeling: Excited, nervous, terrified!

Doctor’s Appointment: This morning (Last MFM appointment) and this Friday 04/01 (OB appointment).

Weight Gain: 8.5 lbs (but will know for sure after today's appointment.

Maternity Clothes: All maternity

Baby Preparation: More de-cluttering and organizing.

Gender: Boy!!! Spencer Nathan W.

Sleep: Interrupted. My nightly bathroom trips total 6 times per night between bedtime and 6:00 am

Best moment this week: Realizing Spencer is still baking away

Movement: Still seeing "waves" across my stomach as he moves. Such a wonder to watch and every time I see it I am in awe of God's creation!

Food cravings: Nothing this week (yet!).

What I miss: Getting up at night without having to wake up hubby to help me get out of the bed.

What I am looking forward to: Meeting the next milestones: 35 weeks (4 days away), and delivery (but not anytime soon!), and our 2nd baby shower this afternoon!

Milestones: Getting to 34 weeks.

I woke up Sunday morning an emotional mess. I could not stop crying. I am so grateful to have gotten this far. After losing Alyssa-Joy and Evan, we really thought we were not meant to have children, but when day after day passes and Spencer is still rolling around and God is still making a way, I feel blessed to have been given a third chance. God is indeed an awesome God and the TAC is a wonderful thing!

I will update on Friday after both appointments.

Awaiting my expected end,
Marie

Monday, March 28, 2011

Pediatrician? Check!

Thank you all so much for the questions to ask the pediatrician. As you can tell from the title, we loved him and have decided to use his practice.

Hubby and I sat down and chose the questions (from the list given) that we wanted to ask as well as some things to look for when we arrived at the office.

We chose the following and rated them on a scale from 1-10:
Proximity to home - 10 (5-10 minutes depending on traffic)
Cleanliness and set up of the office (child friendly/parent friendly) - 8. The have a sick waiting room and a well waiting room, toys and books for the kiddos, magazines and well-baby clips for the parents.
Friendliness of the office staff - 10
The wait time of the patients in the office - 8. Pretty standard. Most were called back after about 10 minutes.
Comfort and ease with the Dr. - 10
Comfort and ease with nurses - 10

Overall, they were pretty good and our consultation with the Dr. went well.
The one thing I liked was that he works out of 3 different hospitals, so we are not bound to one if an emergency arises. The only downfall is that when we deliver, one of his partners (there are 4) will attend to Spencer at the hospital and his first appointment a few days after birth. His son is getting married and he will be out of town that week.

Again, thank you so much for your help as they guided us in the right direction and we were able to find a pediatrician that we both liked (and who also comes with great referrals!).

Awaiting my expected end,
Marie

Friday, March 25, 2011

33 Weeks!


Thank you all so much for the comments and suggestions on the previous post. I tend to want to make things better and I have to learn that in her own time she will deal with her loss. Thank you all so much <3.


How many weeks: 33 weeks - Praise God!

How am I feeling: Excited, nervous, terrified!

Doctor’s Appointment: Next Wednesday 03/30 (Last MFM appointment) and Next Friday 04/01 (OB appointment).

Weight Gain: 8 lbs

Maternity Clothes: All maternity

Baby Preparation: Getting our carpets professionally cleaned and painting

Gender: Boy!!! Spencer Nathan W.

Sleep: Interrupted. My nightly bathroom trips total 6 times per night between bedtime and 6:00 am

Best moment this week: Realizing Spencer is still baking away

Movement: Still seeing "waves" across my stomach as he moves. Such a wonder to watch and every time I see it I am in awe of God's creation!

Food cravings: Jamaican Beef Patties (the spicy kind). Yum!

What I miss: Getting up at night without having to wake up hubby to help me get out of the bed.

What I am looking forward to: Meeting the next milestones: 35, weeks, and delivery (but not anytime soon!), and our 2nd baby shower next Wednesday!

Milestones: Getting to 33 weeks and fattening Spencer up to 4 pounds. Last week he weighed 4 pounds, 6 ounces!

Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes! They are greatly appreciated!

Awaiting my expected end,
Marie

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

On the Other Side of the Fence

My heart has been heavy lately. I am grieving for my sister and the loss of my niece or nephew. I am trying my best to support her and encourage her, but she does not want to hear it and I have no idea how to help her. I tried directing her to some support groups, blogs, and so on, and she refuses to even entertain the idea. I am at a loss for words and have no idea how else to help her. I know we all process loss differently and I am trying to help as best as I know how.
She did not attend my shower, but I expected that and let her know before hand that I would not be offended if she could not attend, because I have been there myself, where the thought of attending showers drove me into a fit of sweats. Well, she tried to come to the shower and had a breakdown in her parking lot. :-(. She refuses to be around me, and I know that the sight of my growing bump makes her relive those dark days. I understand, because I have been there. When we are together as a family and the talk turns to Spencer's upcoming arrival, she leaves the room. I have tried talking to my family to let them know to be sensitive, but their comments still hurt her. Again, I understand because I have been there.
I am afraid that she will not want to see Spencer or be in his presence because he may remind her of her loss. I am afraid that everytime she sees him, he will be a trigger. I am very sensitive to her grief, and I try my best to be there for her, but my being there will not take the hurt away.
I know she is happy for me, but I also know seeing me makes the process hard. I want her to be close to her nephew and not have the sight of him be a reminder of her loss.
I know of several BLM bloggers who have a sibling who is expecting, and though they are happy for them, they struggle being around their sibling and experience hurt by exposing their shattered hearts to the pregnancy.
For those of you who have had a sibling go through a pregnancy after your own loss, please help me. What would you have liked your sibling to do or not do around you? How would you have liked to be helped? How did you feel? Please help me. I love my sister - she was there holding my hand while delivering Alyssa-Joy and Evan - and I want to be there for her the best way I know how.
I am on the other side of the fence ---- it seems I can help others, but I cannot reach my own sister. :-(
Please help.
Awaiting my expected end,
Marie